Emptiness

I'm in shock. I have no idea how the last three days went by. I practically haven't touched work, and I can't figure out how I spent those hours in the office.

Everything seems more vivid, and yet blurred at the same time. The sights and sounds of the city seem brighter and clearer, and yet more distant. The experiences beckon to me, and yet even if I have them now they will be incomplete. The dreams seem closer, and yet more out of reach.

There is an emptiness inside me, an infinite void.

However, there is also cautious optimism. The anguish will pass, the mind will be still once more, and I will come out of this experience stronger, happier and more mature. And so will she. Hopefully we will be better individuals, and better together.

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My feelings of despair and delight are quite well represented by this beautiful music: 

Birthday Wishes to a Mad Girl :)

Today is a mad girl's birthday. This crazy guy wants the mad girl in question to know that she is remembered and missed. He knows she's not feeling so good for some reason, but he wants her to feel special. He wants to see her smile so badly that he spent a considerable amount of time on the internet trying to find just the right card for her, but in the end concluded that she is so special that none of those silly cards would be right for her. And he knows that she will read this, and hopes that cheeky though it is, it will bring a smile to her face.

Because it's really late at night (or really early in the morning :), this crazy guy is going to bed now.

Happy Birthday, mad girl :).