Today is a mad girl's birthday. This crazy guy wants the mad girl in question to know that she is remembered and missed. He knows she's not feeling so good for some reason, but he wants her to feel special. He wants to see her smile so badly that he spent a considerable amount of time on the internet trying to find just the right card for her, but in the end concluded that she is so special that none of those silly cards would be right for her. And he knows that she will read this, and hopes that cheeky though it is, it will bring a smile to her face.
Because it's really late at night (or really early in the morning :), this crazy guy is going to bed now.
Happy Birthday, mad girl :).
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Saturday, October 22, 2011
FML
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So it's happening again.
Last night I was practically depressed. I felt like screaming my heart out, or crying in bed. It took all the self control I had not to pick up the phone and dial her number.
Am I so dependent on her that my day to day moods swing at whim? Or do I just have to find a reason to be depressed all the time?
Maybe I'm just not fit to be in a relationship.
</FML>
So it's happening again.
Last night I was practically depressed. I felt like screaming my heart out, or crying in bed. It took all the self control I had not to pick up the phone and dial her number.
Am I so dependent on her that my day to day moods swing at whim? Or do I just have to find a reason to be depressed all the time?
Maybe I'm just not fit to be in a relationship.
</FML>
Sunday, October 2, 2011
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Back to base.
The trip abroad was a lot of fun, but the dream is over now and harsh reality has started to sink in. It's a hard world out there. Living life and being happy doesn't come easy. Not at all.
I had a long long chat with D last night. It was quite a depressing conversation but this is one good thing that came out of it. I'm going to try again to bring discipline into my life.
PS: My grandmother passed away today. I'm not quite able to understand how it has affected me. I was not very close with her at a personal level. But if I try to imagine how I would react if my mother died, I wonder how she must be feeling right now.
And it's weird how quickly all traces of a person's life vanish after they've passed on. Just yesterday she was alive and whole, even though not keeping well. And today, she's nothing more than ashes in a box. Will I leave a mark on this world when I'm gone? Or will I also end up as ashes lost in the sands of time?
The trip abroad was a lot of fun, but the dream is over now and harsh reality has started to sink in. It's a hard world out there. Living life and being happy doesn't come easy. Not at all.
I had a long long chat with D last night. It was quite a depressing conversation but this is one good thing that came out of it. I'm going to try again to bring discipline into my life.
PS: My grandmother passed away today. I'm not quite able to understand how it has affected me. I was not very close with her at a personal level. But if I try to imagine how I would react if my mother died, I wonder how she must be feeling right now.
And it's weird how quickly all traces of a person's life vanish after they've passed on. Just yesterday she was alive and whole, even though not keeping well. And today, she's nothing more than ashes in a box. Will I leave a mark on this world when I'm gone? Or will I also end up as ashes lost in the sands of time?
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